It’s About Time

I wish this was

Some kind of a dream,

But even reality

Is not what I want.

Been living my life

Without a north,

Haven’t set a plan to guide me,

Haven’t trace a course to follow.

Now I feel like drowning,

Feel like Tom Hanks in Cast Away.

Feel like wherever I go

I reach no where,

I see no improvement.

Still seeking for some light.

This wasn’t what I wanted.

Have what I desired,

But not the way I really wanted it,

I should’ve been specifically with my wishes.

I guess is my fault

For not pursuing my own

And deep passions and dreams.

I should’ve fought

And make true my own word.

Always blamed it

On somebody or something else,

But it was always me,

The one who did nothing make it happen.

I yell,

That was the problem.

If you scream it All the time

You make only noise,

And noise it’s not comprehensible.

I should’ve been polite

And talked like a civilized person.

I acted as I did

Putting aside the consequences,

Now I’m paying my past behavior.

Gotta face it

And turn it to good,

Must play it on my behalf.

It’s my life,

I’m the one who’s gonna live it,

Can’t be an spectator

And expect for something to happen,

I gotta make it happen.

It’s about time

To take the bull by its horns

And tame the scary little one inside me.

She can’t rule my life forever.

I’ve made my mind,

Gonna live my life

Not as it comes,

But as I want it.

Gonna make true my deepest of thoughts,

Passions and desires,

Even if they go against your believes.

Won’t be easy.

I’ll be alone,

‘Cos no one else can make me happy,

My happiness relies on me only.

Everyday will be a constant battle,

Must make sure to use my better cards.

Do not wish me luck,

Don’t believe in such.

Everybody creates their own destiny.

Hey!

Too much talking.

See ya soon.

Gotta go.

Gotta life to live.